Her young life stalled after a horrific accident, yet she “lacked no good thing”

The last thing Rachel Teo remembered was making her way to meet a friend. Then everything went black.

When she opened her eyes, the 21-year-old found herself in an unfamiliar room, with her body in casts and bandages.

“This is a hospital,” she was told. “You’ve been in a coma for two months.”

She had been hit by a van while crossing the road. Her arms, legs and ribs were broken. Her jaw was smashed. A long scar – from a brain surgery performed while she was in a coma – ran across her shaven head.

“This is a hospital. You’ve been in a coma for two months.”

She also struggled to think straight. She was later told that she had suffered a severe traumatic brain injury that would be permanent.

Then a first-year psychology student who had just received stellar results for her first semester, Rachel found her life now irrevocably altered.

“I lost many things because of the accident,” Rachel, now 31, said. 

Left behind

Her recovery was not an easy one.

With her body wrecked by the accident, she found it impossible to do simple tasks like walking, writing and dressing herself.

Rachel (right, in white) was excelling in her first semester of university before the accident.

She dropped out of university to focus on recuperating and spent a year going in and out of the hospital for different consultations and surgeries.

As a result of her brain injury, she also struggled to control her own body. For example, she would sometimes suddenly burst out laughing or crying for no reason.

“I lost many things because of the accident.”

These difficulties were compounded by the emotional pain of watching her friends moving on with “normal” life without her.

“Imagine at the age of 21, all my friends are back in school, going out, dating, feeling happy, and what am I doing? My days are busy with being in the hospital meeting my neurosurgeon, my orthopaedic, going for surgeries,” she said.

“Why didn’t you let me die?”

Choking up with emotion, Rachel recalled asking God: “Why didn’t you just let me die?”

“I questioned God. I was angry with God … But I needed God.”

She recalled hurling vulgarities at the God she had come to know in her days at Hwa Chong Institution.

“Why did you let this happen? You are God Almighty. Why didn’t you stop the van? I just want to be a simple person and go through a normal life. Why did you let me go through all this?” she ranted.

“In my heart – I don’t even dare to say this – but I hated God. I questioned God. I was angry with God,” she confessed. “But I needed God.”

He was the only one that she felt could understand what she was going through. She knew that He was listening to her cries (Psalm 66:19). She believed He is a wonderful counsellor (Isaiah 9:6) who can fully empathise with her pain.

So while she railed at Him, she also knew: “I’m his daughter. I need to hold His hand.”

A loving space

And so she did, even as she went back to university and failed her first semester back. Twice.

She eventually dropped out of university and instead took up a diploma in child psychology.

“Watching her friends graduate with their degrees was painful.

Though she was resigned to the fact that her life would no longer look like that of her friends, watching them graduate with their degrees was painful.

During that period, she got off social media. She spent her days blasting praise and worship songs in her room. “I knew that God knew how I felt and He could deal with my emotions,” she said.

She sought comfort in verses like Psalm 139:16 that showed the intimacy of her relationship with her heavenly Father:

“Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”

Her faith in God’s nearness and kindness was not misplaced. She would see that “God always made sure I lacked no good thing (Psalm 34:10)”.

While she worried about being able to find employment due to her cognitive impairment, God sent her a job opportunity to work as a children’s ministry staff at Covenant Community Methodist Church (CCMC) – a job she had always dreamed of as a young girl.

Being a children’s ministry staff at CCMC was a dream come true for Rachel, who had always wanted to work in a church.

Though she was not earning as much as her contemporaries, “it was always sufficient”.

“I needed to be in a loving community because I couldn’t process emotions or read people like a normal person.”

Her colleagues were understanding of her condition and took great care of her, she said.

“God knew that I needed to be in a very welcoming, loving and supportive community because I couldn’t process emotions or read people like a normal person, and I didn’t understand how to behave in situations,” said Rachel.

Rachel also found that God cared even about her smallest desires, like travelling again and attending a fancy D&D like her friends in corporate jobs.

Rachel (third from right) yearned to travel again after her accident. Her prayers were answered when she got to go on a company retreat to Vietnam.

At CCMC, she got an opportunity to go to Vietnam for a company retreat. And in her next job at a social service organisation, she was given the chance to organise and attend a charity gala dinner.

Still excited when she recounts these little answered prayers, Rachel said: “God really took care of me. He never deprived me of anything.”

Battling for six long years

However, she was still fighting a huge battle on the legal front. She was embroiled in a lawsuit against the driver of the van to claim damages.

“I feared losing my lawyer more than I feared losing my case.”

Her lawyer appeared to be less than sympathetic and was often impatient with her inability to grasp what was going on. Her parents, being unable to speak English, were unable to help.

Her lawyer would scold and shout at her, she said. She had little choice but to bear with it as her family did not have many connections. Her father is a hawker and her mother is a hairdresser.

“I feared losing my lawyer more than I feared losing my case. Because if my lawyer is gone, who else would I go to?” she said. 

It was during this time that she cultivated the habit of kneeling by her bedroom window and taking it all to the Lord in prayer.

“It was just me and God,” she said. “But I believe that God hears us.”

She took courage in Bible stories that demonstrated the mightiness of God.

Her faith proved not to be in vain. One day a colleague heard Rachel’s lawyer shouting at her over the phone and linked her up with another lawyer, whom Rachel said was kind to her.

The lawsuit lasted a difficult six long years, during which Rachel often felt helpless. But she exchanged her fears for worship and took courage in Bible stories that demonstrated the mightiness of God.

In particular, she clung to 1 Samuel 17:47, which reminded her that the battle belongs to the Lord. 

After much prayer, there was eventually a “good closure” to the lawsuit, she said. “God really took care of me.”

Giving hope

Rachel’s experience spurred her and husband, who is an artificial intelligence (AI) scientist, to set up an online platform, CDike, to help connect people to lawyers.

Rachel also thanks God for bringing her husband into her life. They were married two years ago.

“How many people out there are like me? They may not necessarily qualify for pro bono services, nor have sufficient knowledge and connections to get a suitable lawyer,” she said.

Rachel, who is running this platform full-time, finds out each clients’ need, budget and expectations, and links them up with the right lawyer. The matching is done virtually, which helps to protect clients’ privacy.

The service, which was formally launched in August, is free for clients. Lawyers who wish to join their community pay a small membership fee. 

“I know how it feels like to feel hopeless in a situation. I know the pain of those who are not so educated and who don’t have many connections. I’m not a lawyer. I cannot fight their lawsuit for them. But I can try my best to help them,” she said.

Rachel and husband now have a daughter, Ariel, who is about a year old.

While she once cursed God for letting the horrific accident happen to her, she now knows that God’s hand of care and love was always with her.

“I believe God already had everything planned out – even life after my accident, what I would do, what I can do with my life experiences. Because He knows just what we need before we say a word and He can do beyond what we can imagine.”

If you or someone you know needs the services of CDike, find out more through their website, Instagram and Facebook page.

A version of this article first appeared in Salt&Light.

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